Sunday, 26 July 2009

It Hurts So Much...

Just had another friend added to my friend list on Facebook. While looking at her pictures, I saw some daring, beautiful poses, and immediately I could feel this sickening feeling inside me. About things I'll never have, things I'll never be, things which are taken from me forever due to this stupid body. I feel ugly, freakish, a fraud and unworthy of filthying up this world with my presence any longer.

Please... I don't want this body...


Maya

2 comments:

Jeroen said...
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Jan said...

Wel; Maya, you are not the only one. I would gladly exchange mine if I could. You know why, you have seen me. But alas, we have to live with it.
My only solace is that there so many people in this world who would exchange their body with mine ( people who are blind, paralysed deaf etc) If I think of that I can go on living...